PIG

thats what my mum called me several times today.
pig. pig. pig. pig.
it hurt so much.
i burst into tears.
just because of this, i'm going to get so skinny, she'd be afraid to touch me.
you did this to me.
must be off for an hour run.
then 20 mins skipping.
thats like 400 cals burned.

not eating tomorrow.
school next day.
i hate me.
this is me:

i wanted to cut.
but i cant do that anymore.
my boyfriend will see and then its questions questions questions.
i cant explain okay?
i cant explain why i cut myself open or puke or starve.
its just me.

today? not so good.