want to eat. hungry hungry.

BUT I'M NOT GOING TOOO. so i'm going to list the times i felt fat:

• there was a day in year 11 or 10, me and my family we're going out and i couldn't find anything to wear that i didnt look bad in. i just hit my thighs and punched my stomache and sat on the floor and bawled my eyes out. stupid fat cry baby.
• when i was in year 6, i went to take a shower and i looked down and realised that i couldnt see my toes anymore.
• i started getting stretch marks on my thighs and hips. mum took me to the doctor. he said "you need to loose weight."
• when i was getting picked up early in primary school, and i ran towards my mum in excitement. but when i reached her, she said "dont run, your boobs are flopping up and down, and your belly is jiggling."
• when my mum said "its good your eating again, you look healthy again."
• when my size 8 jeans started to get tight and i couldnt wear them anymore.
• when my friend lost a massive amount of weight and i gained.
• when my boyfriend picked me up and i could hear him struggling
• when my sister said that my legs look fat and i look like i'm squishing my fat togther.
• when i lost 8 kilos and gained 7 back.
• when i tried on one of my mums top and it was super tight and i could see my back rolls.
• when i discovered my thighs smack together
• when i discovered my arms wobble
• when i discovered i have a beer belly
• when i discovered i have a huge butt
• when i discovered my double chin
• when i discovered my fingers are fat.

i will not eat.