update

i havnt been updating because i've been really busy. hw has risen steadily and b/p dosent help me get it done. it wastes so much of my fucking time. i hate eating. and i hate purging. ergh. i dunno why i just cant stop.

butttttt!!!!!!! good news, on the 4th March i've reached 50.5kg. FUCKKK YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. lowest weight again. last time i was in this weight i didnt get my period. but i did eat yesterday and today. yesterday i ate normal 3 meals. and today i didnt have breakfast but i did have lunch and lots of bloody icecream. my stomach is still flat though thank god. but i think i might have gained so i'm not going to weigh myself for a couple of days.

i will update more. i promise.
and i will get skinny. i promise.