keep forgetting to blog.

well i'm going to keep this short because i'm revising for my maths test and i have a shit load of hw to do and i've wasted so much time already.

i'm officially 50kg. weighed on friday and i was estatic. one more kilo and i'm in the 40s.
although i'm kinda scared, after discovering i lost weight, i binged and unfortunately purged this weekend. FUCK. STUPID IDIOT.
ERGH.
so i'm not going to weigh myself for a few days and i'm not going to eat. food disgusts me at the moment. and fuking hell my belly is once again back.
500 situps should do it.
hour run
half hour skipping.
and weights.
hopefully i can reach 49.5 by the end of the week.

p.s i missed my period. it was due 4 days ago. my lowest weight has been 50.5kg and last time i was there my period was like nothing. now i'm lighter and at my lowest weight ever, i'm hoping it will stay away. i dont know why, but last time i was 50.5 i felt so skinny. i felt so happy. and now that i'm under that. i feel fatter.
Why?


xx