i attended my first ever funeral today. it was the saddest day of my life. i've never seen so many people dressed in black. i've never seen so many people standing together without saying a word. i've never seen so many people cry all at once. i've never seen a mother so heartbroken that your own heart will break a million times just watching her shed tears for her dead son.
to hear a mother howling and screaming for her son is the saddest thing in the world. i cried so much today.
i know i was not particularly crying because i've lost a friend. i probably havnt spoken to him since primary school but i was crying for his family and his friends. to see them lose someone they love so much, so suddenly, is just..
i saw a dead corpse for the first time today.
he looked so peaceful. he looked asleep. dreaming of something sweet. as soon as i saw him i broke down completely. it's hard to believe it was just an empty shell. that he's not really sleeping. that he's left and he's gone forever. i feel so sorry for his family. they didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. it's so unfair.
it's just sad. knowing that he wont ever breathe again. his heart will never beat again. his mother wont be able to hold him again. he'll never walk this earth again.
R.I.P
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