almost gave in

i went to the fridge and roamed around it looking for something edible.
i opened the cupboard and led my eyes around in search for something tastey.
i walked to the freezer and opened it and found myself holding a paddlepop.
i placed it onto the couch and looked at it.

"I'm going on my walk soon so i can work it off by running too."
"I didnt eat anything all day and it's only 107 calories."
"Maybe if I ate half of it, it wouldnt count to anything coz it'd only be 54 calories"

but..

"It's been ages since i've fasted a whole day without screwing it up at night."
"I'll feel so so so so bad after I eat it. I'll feel like a worthless piece of dung."
"It will probably lead to a binge. And soon I'll consume special k, bread, cheese, peanuts, yoghurt, noodles, and a whole other shit food that'll make me fat."
"I dont want this. I want to be skinny."

so i put the paddlepop back into the fridge and i took an icecube.
yum yum yum.

my stomach starts to rumble.
i'm succeding.
horrah !

now to start my assignment .. *sigh