epic fail.

well i remember previously today i posted that i was having a break with my relationship with mia.. turns out she wasnt the clingy one.






i'm the clingy one.


i ran back to her.. after an hour of saying i am ending my relationship with mia, i binged once again. i hate it when my mums goes food shopping. there is ALWAYS something that she gets that i like. this afternoon she got seasme bread sticks. i love them. so i decided to eat 2 long rolls. and then i had rice. and eggs. and 4 bowls of special k.



i then spend my next hour taking all the food out of me. i am in pain now. my knuckles hurt. my mouth is swollen. as are my eyes. my chest hurts and my stomach is churning. and i smell of puke.




FUCKING GREAT.






i will not eat.
i will not eat.
i will not eat.
i will not eat.
i will not eat.




i must not eat. or eating will lead hating myself even more.