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hmmm seems like everytime i try to stop bloggin i have the urge to blog. lol. today i had:
sour cream 150
green apple 53
5 peanut m&m's 50
carrot 30
special k bar 89

372 cals.
i'm having a juice box later which is 117, which will make my intake 489.
not bad, im pretty happy with that. also walked to and from school, 100 = 200 cals. good good. doing well today. i really  hope i dont fuck up. im so sick of fucking up.
i've decided to cut out:

• bread
• cheese
• chips
• all nuts but peanut m&m's. they are my favourite food. oh and peanut butter. i love it and i cant not have it. i've also decided to not cut out chocolate because i love it so much. but i've made a rule, if i'm having m&m's, chocolate, or peanut butter then i will not exceed over 200 cals. i may however go to 500 cals IF thats all i eat that day.

so yeah, i'm juts trying to stay under 500 for now. i'm trying to sleep more so i dont freak out becoz im tired and binge. i tend to do that. i also hvae to start walking again at night. i havnt been walking because i've been bloody binging but im going to today, even if its cold. i have bought a new jumper and i love it so i'll wear that. im continuing my situps and crunches and weights. so thats good. at least my abs can still be seen a lil bit under all that fat. im doing it properly this time. i think the thing that snapped me into this control is my exam results today. i got 94%. i. was. so. freaking. happy. but now i know that if i didnt spend 2 hours a day binging and purging and studied how i planned that i could maybe get 100%. hopefulyy. i wana be skinny, small, smart and successful. i will be that.
take care xx

willbeskinny.